15 de Novembro de 2009

"If I had had faith, I would have stayed with Regine. Thanks to God I now see that. I have been on the point of losing my mind these days. Humanly speaking, I was fair to her; perhaps I should never have become engaged, but from that moment I treated her honestly... If I had not honored her higher than myself as my future wife, if I had not been prouder of her honor than of my own, then I would have married her - there are so many marriages which conceal little stories. That I did not want, then she would become my concubine; I would rather have murdered her. - But if I were to explain myself, I would have had to iniate her into terrible things, my relationship to my father, his melancholy, the eternal night brooding within me, my going astray, my lusts and debauchery, which, however, in the eyes of God are perhaps not so glaring; for it was, after all, anxiety that made me go astray, and where was I to seek a safe stronghold when I knew or suspected that the only man I had admired for this strenght was tottering." Sören Kierkegaard